Warrior Wednesday

"This is a moth and it is from Zy... And the sun is really Zy smiling a'cause we saw him!" ~Miss F

Dear Zy,
It's been a while since I've posted a Warrior Wednesday on the Kewl blog. It's not because we haven't had moments, or because I haven't been thinking about you. I spend lots of time thinking about you everyday...
But you already know that.

I haven't wanted to share you. I've wanted to keep you all to myself. Maybe because I was never able to do this when you were here - I was just your surrogate mum, your magic growing basket, your favourite aunt...
But I am starting to realise that none of that really matters to you. Especially not now.

I think I have been selfish. I have wanted to keep all of our moments held tightly against my chest, almost as if I am hoping that if I hold on tightly enough, I might just be able to feel you there...
But you are always there, you show me so everyday, and I am starting to expect your moments - your presence - instead of being surprised by it.

Darling Zy, please keep showing me your moments, and I promise I will keep seeing them.

Love from me.

2 comments:

Mama Zen said...

This couldn't be more lovely!

M+B said...

Be selfish if you need to... sharing will come when you're ready. Zy will always be in your heart - keep seeing those moments :)