Warrior Wednesday

Dear Zy,

I miss you. Every second, of every minute, of every hour, of every day.
And I love you. Every second, of every minute, of every hour, of every day.

I miss your bio mum, too. We used to have the kind of connection only the very best of friends could conduct. I never, ever thought it was something we would lose. I always thought that no matter what happened - we would come through it together.

The day we released your ashes into the river and walked with you, out to sea, was the day I realised your mum was no longer the same person I was connected to.
And I miss that person.
Maybe one day, we will find each other again.

10 comments:

Debby said...

Oh, Alison. You have lost so much this year. I hope that your friend comes back to you.

Melody said...

To loose a baby and a friend is horrible. You wouldn't wish it on anyone and I am sorry it happened to you.

I miss my baby too. More so this week than ever.

rhubarbwhine said...

Losing a friend, someone you feel you have common ties to, is so hard. I do understand this loss, it's a different type of greif tinged with confusion. Travel safe, Al xx

Tsquared417 said...

Sending a hug your way.

Mama Zen said...

So much loss, Alison. I'm sorry.

tiff(threeringcircus) said...

Oh Al,

Sending healing vibes your way. I'm sorry you are hurting.

PlanningQueen said...

A beautiful song. Sorry for your pain.

•´.¸¸.•¨¯`♥.Trish.♥´¯¨•.¸¸.´• said...

sorry for your pain Al and the loss of a friend as well as Zy.
I know many relationships with my friends changed after Charlotte died ...you can only go forward looking back is painful.

Bush Babe said...

What everyone has already said, and again... this friendship has been through an enormous challenge (I actually don't know that they get any bigger than that?) and it may or may not survive...

Please don't beat yourself up over it though. I learned a long time ago that you cannot MAKE friendships last. They grow and change as the people in them grow and change... it's hard. You are both grieving many things - and its so sad that the situation has meant you have not been able to support each other in your this grieving.

I love that your Zy is always high in your heart.
:-)
Huge hugs
BB

MissyBoo said...

Maybe oneday you and M might reconnect on some level and help each other heal? It might be hard to see that happening now but you just never know?

Hugs to you xxx