Dear Zy,
I miss you. Every second, of every minute, of every hour, of every day.
And I love you. Every second, of every minute, of every hour, of every day.
I miss your bio mum, too. We used to have the kind of connection only the very best of friends could conduct. I never, ever thought it was something we would lose. I always thought that no matter what happened - we would come through it together.
The day we released your ashes into the river and walked with you, out to sea, was the day I realised your mum was no longer the same person I was connected to.
And I miss that person.
Maybe one day, we will find each other again.
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About Me
- Alison
- I'm Alison, and my three most important little people are Miss J, twin sister of Miss F - both 4 going on 14 and big sisters to Miss V - who is an impressive 3 years old and anything but the 'baby' of the family.
No doubt I will find it impossible to stick to one theme for this blog, so here is some background info that will hopefully add some sense the inevitable random posts...
The man of our family, M, is no longer with us in body though he is ever present in mind and spirit.
I used to be active in the performing arts 'scene' - Less so now as my girls take centre stage. Creativity is still a huge part of life, though being directed by three toddlers the art form is somewhat different.
I'm always passionate about dramatic arts and creative expression, especially as a tool for inclusion... Bringing me to my next point of focus - Awareness and acceptance of people with diverse abilities. I work with people of all abilities doing anything from playing drama games, making music, talking, teaching, learning and always having fun.
I guess one theme I CAN stick to is that last point - having fun. Living a joyful life is the greatest success, I feel.
10 comments:
Oh, Alison. You have lost so much this year. I hope that your friend comes back to you.
To loose a baby and a friend is horrible. You wouldn't wish it on anyone and I am sorry it happened to you.
I miss my baby too. More so this week than ever.
Losing a friend, someone you feel you have common ties to, is so hard. I do understand this loss, it's a different type of greif tinged with confusion. Travel safe, Al xx
Sending a hug your way.
So much loss, Alison. I'm sorry.
Oh Al,
Sending healing vibes your way. I'm sorry you are hurting.
A beautiful song. Sorry for your pain.
sorry for your pain Al and the loss of a friend as well as Zy.
I know many relationships with my friends changed after Charlotte died ...you can only go forward looking back is painful.
What everyone has already said, and again... this friendship has been through an enormous challenge (I actually don't know that they get any bigger than that?) and it may or may not survive...
Please don't beat yourself up over it though. I learned a long time ago that you cannot MAKE friendships last. They grow and change as the people in them grow and change... it's hard. You are both grieving many things - and its so sad that the situation has meant you have not been able to support each other in your this grieving.
I love that your Zy is always high in your heart.
:-)
Huge hugs
BB
Maybe oneday you and M might reconnect on some level and help each other heal? It might be hard to see that happening now but you just never know?
Hugs to you xxx
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